Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Am I A Theater

We are currently experiencing this ridiculous snowstorm that is affecting a good bit of the country, with about a foot of snow around here.  I even got a snow day from work, which is something that I never thought I would get as an adult.  I haven't left my house in three days, which means I have gotten a lot done, but I also have been doing quite a bit of loafing and thinking.  I have been reading a lot, which tends to make me very introspective, I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing.

I have been thinking about how quick we are to put on an act.  One book that I have been reading is Scary Close by Donald Miller.  I haven't finished the book yet, but he discusses how the deepest craving of the human spirit is to be fully known and to be accepted anyways.  However, we can't be fully known and fully accepted because most of us are not fully known, it is for this reason that many of us do not feel fully accepted.  We are all so quick to act out a theater.  We are all actors in a play and we all think that we are the only ones that are acting in our play, when we aren't really the main actor.  All of this has me thinking, how much of who I think I am and pretend to be is actually me, and what is just a theater that I am putting on.  What parts of me are real and what parts of me are parts I pretend are real, to get some fake acceptance from others. I think that we who spend more time online are especially guilty of this, putting out only the sparkly clean bits of our lives. Most of us pretend to be interesting, when really there are real parts of us that are actually interesting.  It's some deep stuff to think about. That's what snow days do to me I suppose, make me get all introspective and deep.

Thanks for putting up with my crazy deep thoughts for today.